L'erreur est humaine. - presenceartdevivre

To err is human.

"Today, while working on my daily personal guidance draw, I received an important message that I was advised to share publicly. My personal talent for writing was undermined in my childhood, and this is a wonderful opportunity for me to share my experience with you, reader, while allowing myself to heal this wound." 
The message from the draw translates as follows in my divinatory journal: "In written communication, a weight burdens me and limits my expression. An opening is nonetheless happening despite me in my secret garden. My good star guides me faithfully, in order to cross the veil of my fears."  
"My guide is calling me to make public some of my personal writings. The weight of my past prevents me from clearly seeing the healing opportunity that is presented to me. By acknowledging the shadow cast over my past experiences, I shine a light on a trauma in order to heal it." 

During this draw, several images came to my mind, particularly that of my recent vacation and the shame that suddenly arose during a text exchange and the fear of being rejected, judged, or mocked for sending a message containing an error. 
"I realized that this feeling of shame is a form of punishment that I impose on myself in order to always appear perfect, to protect myself from the judgments I internalized when I was still a growing child." 
The message that comes out of this analysis is that to err is human and that I sometimes tend to forget that my apparent mistakes can always be corrected with love and compassion. I have realized a deep blockage, related to my upbringing, that makes me fear publishing my writings and expressing myself in my daily life. 

"When I publish on this blog, it takes me back to my childhood, when I submitted my homework to the teachers and awaited their judgment to know what my mistakes were. Today, I realize that, for me, seeing someone rewrite over my work is a form of personal attack, which has taught me that when someone points out that I have made a mistake, I am in danger." 
The roots of the dynamics of codependence and perfectionism are revealed here in a striking way: unable to control how each individual understands the rules and their expectations in their own way, I chose to adapt to the expectations of all my teachers to survive, rather than express my needs and thus be supported as I deserved. 

"Today, I understand that these people are and were already at the time, individuals in their own right who transmitted to me not only their knowledge about certain subjects, but also their way of seeing the world and living based on what they understood from their own human experience."  
As an adult today and as a guide/trainer in divination, I realize that self-regulation and observation are fundamental keys to balanced learning, allowing each student to discover their abilities and identity, while keeping myself from projecting my own expectations onto them. 

 

"To err is human, and it can be corrected, as long as one knows how to receive it with love and compassion, clarity of conscience, and kindness." 

 

To err is human.© 2024 by Anne-Lise Pollet is licensed under CC BY-NC 4.0

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